haf bn stoning at home w lotsa hse wrk to do for these past few daes... haizz.. miss sch.. i wanna go to school!! ther got lotsa things to do.. m i the onli person hu wanna go to sch during the hols??... heck la... anyway.. i m bored.. i aldredi bought some of the sec 3 books.. some onli.. not all.. coz the rest planning to take frm seniors who alreadi said tt they r gonna gimme their books after the o level exams.. gd luck to them.. heez... i regret buying some of the books earlier... AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!...... i wonder hu i m gonna b w nxt yr.. a real mistery.. ok.. i m being lame here... haha.. klah...

ok.. my throat today is kinda btr.. but it's actuali still the same.. haha.. my name was mentioned in the hall for like dunno hw mani times... aarrgghh.. thn they asked me to wave.. wth??!! i did but a small wave lar... hee.. thn they whole thing went great till serene n i were onstage.. we din know how to position ourselves.. we did alot of moving onstage as well as whispering... haizzzz... thn backstage i dropped the bouqet.. i was rushing like mad leh ... the music started so soon... aarrgghh.. anyway... after tt.. things went rather ok.. din get any scolding.. can liao... haizzzzzz.. vry tired.. hee... gotta go ... buaizzz

i m nt satisfied w wad i posted jz nw.. mz rite more.. dun care.. muz rite more... anyway... convs bcum so meaningless these days.. so empty.. plain n boring.. izit my fault?... oh yeah.. it's my fault all rite.. i m reali aware tt it's my fault... but i m feeling rather too angry.. no matter how much oth ppl might wanna convince me... i m still sticking to my own feelings.. mb tt's a stupid thing to do.. but i've had enuff... enuff means enuff... i can't take this anymore.. all the stupidity involved... uurrggh... i got feedbacks.. tt it's TOO obvious.. omg.. wad did i evn do... shahrul.. nt much of a help... empty promises.. tt's wad evry1 gives me.. anyway.. my bhaviour of nt being able to 4giv myself jz bcz i cldnt 4giv anth person.. it jz makes me worse.. if one were to read this, i m sure they wldn't understand a single shit tt i'm toking... czi m typing this out in the sequence tt it popped up in my brain.... anyway.. dreams might tell the future... and i dreampt tt i was hit by this black hyundai... i dunno hw to spell the oth part of it's name so dun wanna paiseh myself.. ya n then the passenger of the car came out... but i din see the face.. hmmph... thn jz a few mins ago...my granma was nagging at me abt leaving my coughing fit alone.. she tol me tt if i ignored it it was gonna develop into asthma n i was gonna eventually die out of it.. dusn reali matter ... i take med... jz at hm.. nt in frnt of her face.... k fine... my hands r tired

it's my fault.. mb it's nt.. it's my fault.. but mb it's nt.. but i m sure it's my fault.. haizzz.. i dunno wad to think ledi.. these few days hav bn vry depressing for me.. anyway... i got into 2s.. vry hapi ledi.. coz tot tt i was gonna end up in se ... hmmz .. i wonder wad's gonna happend tmr.. i m gonna usher mrs tan n present gifts to mr hang.. but my voice is sucking like hell.. i m sure mani ppl know.. my voice is sucking like hell..!! btw, thnks to all those out ther hu tol me to drink lotsa water n drink honey + lemon + warm water solution.. i greatly appreciated it... well.. was supposed to b waiting 4 the hamper today but it seemed tt the ppl arrived much earlier thn wad we expected.. heez... the hamper seems heavy.. i jz hope tt i wun trip... esp w my clog shoes.. or izit court shoes?... wtv la.. anyway.. i think i owe someone an apology... i m sry for nt wishing u hapi bdae.. i m sry i nvr reali tok much to u... i m sry i treated u coldly.. i m sry i nvr giv u anitin... i m sry for being a selfish person...

anway.. b4 i went home frm my cca, had a quick chat w one of my seniors.. i wanna thank u for the advice.. tho i may nt know u tt well.. u reali helped me jz nw.. when i was abt to burst liao.. thankies so muchies.. ok tt's crap... tmr wld b my last day of sch.. gonna seperate frm my clsmate.. i m feeling rather sad... but nt too sad tt i'll cry.. it's nt i dun appreciate my clsmates.. but hey, think abt it.. it's nt like we'll nvr see each oth again... rite?... i WILL b sad.. jz i cant reali xpress it tt well... sry abt tt

to anth fren.. if she evr read this... to evry beginning... ther's always an ending.. ALWAYS.. no such thing as endless.. xcept for mb life after death lar.. anyway.. my pt is.. i dun tink i cn stand u any longer... ur attitude is changing day by day.. for goodness sake! u r standing bhind the podium! will any1 evr see wad u r wearing?.. hw the clothes look like on u??.. so does it reali matter if u go for a smaller size to help a fren tt needs to hold the flag n move abt n is stuck in a small-sized clothing?.. n for goodness sake! u r darn skinny do u know tt??... fine.. if u want to continue liddet..

oh ya.. anth senior.. my life-saver.. i 4gt tt today got training.. wth??!! thn i din bring p.e shirt... eheh.. thn she wore p.e shirt.. thn she lent me.. luckily u know.. budden.. i was telling her.. hey.. ur shirt vry white leh.. thn she went.. oh ya.. this is my boyfren's shirt.. thn i was jz so stunned lor.. vry paiseh leh.. wear sum1 else's the bf the shirt... God!!

ok thn.. tt's abt all i guess... guess.. my feelings are broken into too many pieces.. more thn a million i guess.. too diff to put it back together to make out wad i m feeling

i need water.. aarrghh.. I woke up with a damn sore throat.. cldn't tok in the morn.. thn during art, i had no mood take pic cz was down w a fever.. thn spent 1 hr in the IT lab during 3r period.. was freezing cold.. during recess.. was out in the open.. but was still freezing cold.. aarrgghh.. firz sore throat.. thn fever... thn running nose.. now a stomach ache... damn... thn spent 3hrs in mly cls.. omg .. sian! .. thn sat at the stone table w siti n stheng to let they time fly by.. thn lyn, hling n i went to hall thn canteen for the mr hang thingy.. i was supposed to usher mr hang w mrs tan.. thn wanted to go for cca but it was over already.. so i went home.. b4 tt went to run errand for mum... thn took 196 to gran's hse.. but din stop at the right stop.. stopped at acs(i) there thn walked all the way to gran's hse.. man.. it was a long journey.. but it was worth it.. needed some time to myself to think some stuff over.. and note to self: say no to Syahrul's qn coz tt's the truth.. wonder where he heard all those stories frm..